I relate to this so much, to me writing or even thinking in english feels almost like dissociation, the moment I speak in my native language I feel like I'm back to being me, which don't get me wrong, is not something that I hate! I really love spanish as a language and I love to speak it, but sometimes, when you have a hard time accepting and liking yourself, trying to distance from what makes you "you" feels nice.
it makes total sense!! i could not speak english all the time because i feel i would forget myself somehow, but it definitely makes for a nice break where i can enjoy other aspects of my personality. thank you for sharing!!!
if you speak several languages and have a similar experience (or a different one) please share!! i wonder if people feel the same way as i do....
I relate to this so much, to me writing or even thinking in english feels almost like dissociation, the moment I speak in my native language I feel like I'm back to being me, which don't get me wrong, is not something that I hate! I really love spanish as a language and I love to speak it, but sometimes, when you have a hard time accepting and liking yourself, trying to distance from what makes you "you" feels nice.
(+) almost like taking a break if that makes sense, lol x_X
it makes total sense!! i could not speak english all the time because i feel i would forget myself somehow, but it definitely makes for a nice break where i can enjoy other aspects of my personality. thank you for sharing!!!