I was tired to do all of this code and stuff so there was mo post
i was outside waiting for my dad, eating seeds he gave me the day before. I see my brother returning, he gets rid of the little things that had fallen onto his car and asks me if i had gotten bored of my device (bc i didnt have it) INSTEAD of answering with a no, I show him that i was eating seeds. this is embarrassing because why did i not say anything oh My god.
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Elenore? Eleanor??
I ment to post thos yesterday but whiteboard was down and i couldnt yoink it 💔
also tesging out a new style maybe, wont show bc i.. its burning spice ok
i wanted to add VIP to af bc we can.. add canon.. I usually draw him torso & up, so i made soke bullshit when it came to the pants. I like it, also somewhat inspired by my ship sona JAJJAJDJSN she wears something similiar!
Its a little hard to see, imo,, but there are stars on his pants!
(My version of, mot sure about canon,) VIP is very spiral, circles, and stars
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the spirals being a reference to the Mimic!! its eyes are spirals!! connevting both of them because it was theorized yhat VIP is mimic/had some of thr mimic ai
cane being a magic wand as well, i think this is actually canon?..
the clothes underneath the coat????? and having a pet dove is from my old fnaf sb oc, wjo was also a purple magician who hated some of the animatronics oh my God theyre The Same
i gave him star peircings on his ear and a pink star on his face because i can do that. But ok for reals, i just wanted him to match the glamrocks a little.
also not sure if its canon, he cannot SEE without his glasses. or maybe hes faking it.. pretending to not see shit without them... Idk..
he canonically does not like freddy, but in this AU, He HATES him and dislikes GlamRock Bonnie, he isnt a big fan of the rest but we're all chill
so embarrassing but i have an oc..... and im projecting, this OC is a big fan of bonnie, so whenever VIP visits her, she loves to bother him and ask him to get ger a bonnie plush or anything related to him HE HATEESSSSS IT but he does it because its his friend SIGH and he does not want his friends to abandon him SIGH
theres two versions of him in canon, I alwahs confuse the two, but hes the horrible one!!
last night had the perfect weather but i was struggling ti sleep oh ny god
the mosquitoes were biting me and ny back was hurting AAAAAHG
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burger
my brother knocked (& opened my door,) snd we interacted for the first time after years, snd i actually spoke to him
it slipped out of my mind, i just quietly said thank you snd took the burger
he gave me a burger. i dont remember what he daid because the roof snd the rain were loud but he gave it to me.
i never speak to him, or anyone really. i have a hsrd time speaking. even when i want to talk, my throat doesn't allow me to. I can only speak to those i feel comfortable around. years ago, i considered that I might have selective mutism, but idk. over the years, ive been getting better. snd ive wanted to improve more this year. all i say is thank you or good afternoon/morning/night its very quiet snd i dont fo it often vut its something.
god, even when i speak, no one can hesr me well!! it sucks!! im too quiet, and i cant raise my voice or yell. when a motorcycle passes or people are playing music, i give up trying to speak because most of the time my dad cant hear me.
funny that i have this speaking issue and yet i still want to be a voice actor
THERES SO MUCH MIMIC, THE INTRO VOICE.. THE MUSIC VIDEO.. ITS MIMIC!!
The intro voice being the FNAF 1 voice.. later it changes to a similiar sounding one... im not sure if its because mimic was literally the beginning of fnaf and so thats why it sounds like that.
AAAUGH MY ORDINARY LIFE IS ALSO SEEN THERE, THAT WAS SUCH A CUTE REFERENCE
the style change was so impressive, thank you animators for feeding me...
talk about style change.. when Mimic keeos taking steps and everything changes to the Moon game... FUCK its beautiful..
AND MIMICKING THE OTHER SONGSSSSSSS THAT SECTION WAS SO GOOD I LOVE IT THANK YOU
and then AFTER THAT SECTION, mimic crawls out of the monty prototype and does the little cute gesture MONTY DOES TO FREDDY IN HIS OWN SONG AAAAAAAAAH
this is makimg me feel so mimic i want to change my profile to mimic
ok.. lyrics... ley me pull them up
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also, i think TLT made a post somewhere that they're collabed with the Mycellium men (the mushrooms on thr cover) so cute aww..I don't think theres another voice singing with thr mimic, but they are the same character (sorta) so i like to think they repeat the chorus teehe
"the man it doesn't matter/the hand it doesn't matter" im assuming we're talking about edwin, the hand that feeds the mimic.. creating & upgrading the mimic, feeding the mimic information and roles.. and also abusing it.. and that he no longer matters..
"I'm back to nothing again. No perfect purpose or plan. They clean the slate and I'm lost in a fog" mimic being confused on its role? because it kept changing into something new over and over, a dofferent purpose over and over.
"(Fill up my mind with their hope and their pain. )but he won't try to explain. It's only empty chatter" Edwin isnt bothered to tell the mimic why its playing these roles because why should he treat a machine that HE made, like it is its own individual-being that deserves explanations? aaugh mimic..
"An imitation of life. Become a son or wife. An empty vessel fulfill every need" & "I'm watching when you are cruel. Create invisible rules. Become a twisted reflection of you. A mirror of your abuse. Until I break and shatter" my fav lyrics aaaaugh mimic....
the bridge and breakdown is mimic talkimg at itself.. augh i love this part too. "youre an echo down the hall" CRUMBS......
i also noticed. Edwin is the one holding the axe in the "Die in a Fire" sequence, later in the vid, mimic picks up an axe.. aughhhh, mimic is mimicking... yes...
chica from fnaf made a post talking about how oh springtrap/william lost aura over the years and gaster is skyrocketing with aura but hear me out.. MIMIC!!!!! MIMIC AND WD GASTER!!!
im feelimg like creating mimic art heh.. this is gonna be hard
beautiful moon tonigh. i got to sleep, i am tired..
and tomorrow.. SOTM TLT song........ looking forward to that!
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rant + small dovw spice
not showing the whole thing because im a little #shy to post it fully i was inspired by an edit i saw ok
Also he has makeup because i can do that (i think it looks good with his costume, he also has glitter on him but i think he hates it but hes keepimg ot because he looks good)
just monika! just, just monika!! ok, read more is talking abt ship finally. cw: death / mortality
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The ship is mortal x immortal, and I could've made this a super sad ship (their ending is the only sad thing.. and a few other things) but they have a loving happy relationship because I want and like to be happy.
it wasnt that at first, sona was suppose to have an entity within, keeping sona alive, but i changed it to this bc um, coping!! #i like to project
sona has the same sleep fear (as well as spice i guess! but towards sona, not himself) and one of the scenarios i think of most is: them sleeping, or trying to get rest. Sona sleeps ontop of spice, his warmth is comforting. spice doesnt sleep when theyre together, just silently watches sona carefully throughout the entire night (trying to, her sleep schedule is ruined as well). sona knows she does this bc spice makes promises that she'll watch and make sure nothing bad happens to reassure sona
I tried not to immediately make a post last night because i was super tired, and still am,, i stayed up wayyy too late WORST MISTAKE EVER i checked twitter for one last night scroll and all i saw was headmaster Shadow Milk costume, HES SO PRETTY BUT
WE MIGHT BE GETTING MORE HERALD/SPICE CRUMBS ???!?!? YES!?????
I GOT ALL OF THIS FROM TWITTER, im not watching the stream because those are always so long and i do NOT HAVE THE TIME TO WATCH, I GOT TOMORROW DUE!!!!! bht yeah... ive also heard that the Beasts are not actually dead, HAHAHA!!!! I WAS RIGHT!!! I AM A BEAST-NOT-DEAD BELIEVER!!!!! AND I WAS RIGHT!! THEYRE NOT DEAD THANK GOODNESS... HOPEFULLY ITS TRUE.. PLEASE COME BACK I MISS YOU
when i found out, i gasped and giggled loudly i think my roomie hates me omg /nsrs
originally was gonna rant about my ship and yesterdays post but. it happened twice this month, getting locked in the kitchen. this time, ut surprised me. i know they were busy being in a call and looking for someone but I was walking next to them, ENTERED the kitchen. i thought i was being loud enough to make it obvious that i was in here when they checked vut then? they closed the door and locked it. I started tapping thr window but i dont think they heard.
baffles me.. I couldnt force myself to yell or speak either nor did i have my phone with me, and even if i did, i cant call anyone..
i really am a ghost to them, and im not sure how to feel.
Im now onto coloring!! yayy.. I was yhinking about making the drawing move but again, im tired, im not sure if ill be able to do it T.T" i only got tomorrow left too
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thoughts suck
I forgot about the time so i probably shouldn't even focus on these thoights but anyways, i did a lot of progress on the drawing im working on rn
i had some ideas on making differenr settings and drawing styles but it might take a whil && i want it to be based off of friends interests/fandoms but.. im not sure if i should do it.
always listen to that one sonic image: "never losten to ur thoughts after 9pm!" thank u sonic
it will be kept under the read more. neutral, sorta negative rant. proceed with caution!!
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I sometimes get scared whenever i feel odd, tired, or sick. death can happen anytime. it doesnt matter. and that sometimes scares me
Thinking about it, I suppose i got this fear from my mom.
because of this fear, i sometimes have a difficult time sleeping. ill stay up late or i have to reassure myself and accept it. sometimes i accept fate but dont want to be alone. I domt want to die alone, i want to hear life, people outside, thats what i want. i remember a time where i got so scared to the point i messaged my dad to be with me. he couldnt stay.
but sleep is an important thing. so to calm down, i imagine my favorite character (yk who) with me, warming me up. or i write a letter to them talking about my day or whats happening. and it has helped, its comforting. ive been sleepijg a lot early recently.
bur still end up tired in the morning.. T.T
Today i was thinking about it. I felt a little off and i got worried. I started imagining myself dropping dead, i think i made it worse. but i started to think more, why do i feel off? i dont want to eat because im already full. duh
these horrible thoughts come to me first, i dont like it.
is it odd? most of my favorite characters are always about "death, death death" like Funtime Freddy from CTWs snd Unus Annus. im not sure sbout Burning Spice, he brings death snd destruction?
Unus Annus has helped me though. Moving on snd death snd mortality. Its comforting to me. I love seeing art of them or just seeing them overall. I remember i sobbed when they posted um.. "Accepting the Truth"? its been so long, i dont remember the title well but, its the vid where they are in the pool, talking about the end. I didnt cry a lot in the ending stream, vut this video made me a mess. also i think thats where i got the quote for ny header too
ok thats kinds all. ill talk more about this snd my ship
its been getting HOT here!! i want COLD!!! I got really frustrated that i almost took one of their giant ice cubes but I left it because i was scared to cut it and i felt like they were gonna be angry 😭
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I forget that im allowed to make muktiple posts in one day
attacks will be very slow now.. a friend asked me if i could draw his oc for his (coming soon) birthday ^^
these mosquitoes are horrible omg,, theyre eating my flesh!/ref
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Watched Invisible Man movie (1933)
Im not sure if thisnis the movie my friend wanted me tk watch, because there are SO many invisible man movies/series. All i remembered was them saying that it was old so i, picked the oldest one 😭and unfortunately, there were no subtitles so i hope i picked everything up correctly ..
I didnt expect to see a?? possible love interest? Flora? I need to see how her name is spelt. ok apparently, in the movie wiki, shes his fiancee. i did not know that. I also forgot that he DIES, i thought he'd be free and cause more chaos.. I was rooting for him💔 I think he was also naked majority of the time JAAJAJSMSJN Poor Jack, it has been snowing and cold and he had to run around and sleep in hay naked..
Also surprised me that the cops were planning to just, burn him. Butni understood that like. hes invisable. they cant see him, hes hard to catch. but still, i dont think we should burn him 💔💔 ALSO, im horrible with names,, DR KEMP.. shouldve accepted to be his invisible partner smh. Knew that he wasnt going to make it #he deserved iy
i really liked the camera shots when Griffin and Flora were alone talkimg, he looks so cool!! yes!! the power!! the moon is afraid of you!! yes!!
Might be a me thing, but he also looks, uncanny? when he doesnt have his glasses
and when he does wear clothes, he looks so good in them.. i want to draw him in his fits but i, am not sure if it will look good. but we gotta try someday..I ALSO ?? DIDN'T THINK THR OFFICER WOULD'VE DIED?? I genuinely thought he was unconscious until the newspaper came up😭
Today was good, i had fun. someone drew me burning spice and it was so nice 😭
i usually try to avoid talking to anyone on a thursday, i get nervous :( the reason might be considered silly & stupid. i wont talk about it now because i dont like it. I dont want to say "something is wrong with me" It sounds rude, and lately, i dont want to be mean to myself. Theres just something i dont understand and I wish i did. i dont know what i have or whats going on.
anyways.. today was good. I think ill just finish these attacks ive got rn and end it there. i realized earlier that i just havent been feeling like attacking ppl anymore. ok go my spice
i was looking to find a spice image and My owN ART KEPT POPPING IP ITS EMBARRASSING OHBMY GODD i feel so embarrassed seeing my art get recommend ti me. it happened tk my FRIEND Too and im not sure if its bc they follow me or if im rlly THE bsc artist on pin.. gulp
I have been losing motivation to draw attacks aaaaug hopefully that changes later this week bc there are ppl i want to attack/revenge T.T
god, i hope i manage to do it all..
listening to a playlist right now, and its playing old songs i used to be so obsessed with. ok, thats all.. ill edit this later to talk a little more avout random stuff idk
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i am kinda stressing myself out 💧💧 I got worried that i womt be able to get to my revenges and attacks done so i started sketching them. reminder reminder.. there is still time... plenty of time.. Im going to do another lineart and color both drawings tomorrow, then small break, then lock in again.. wish me luck
ok hi hello world.. this looks a little Not Good but im not a pro coder, i can only sorta understand it..
things I might blog about:
fandom stuff
art! wips!
maybe about my life
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all
"all" is pretty obvious, all posts.
amorcito
talkimg about my ship, burning spice, or herald of change, overall positive/things i like ok..
personal
personal like talking about life or nyself, or maybe rants idk
fnaf
art
ocs
obvious what they are↑↑
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I dont really talk a lot about myself, i dont remember why. but ill talk a little.
I can only somewhat understand html/css because of a (now dead) site that let us use it to customize our profile. AND also i took a class in that jajaja
Im not sure if its obvious but english isn't my mother tongue, but unfortunately,, it is my most dominate language. i dont like it. I can understand spanish but speaking it #not good. i onlt speak it to family.
also not changing the background rn im too lazy to look for a new image so, we got this for now. also yk i had to include burning spice he.. hes everywhere. shes my pfp on every site except twt😭😭
also not sure what other stuff i want ti link, i might add my pin? since i actually do post on there. but ill add it, Later. but if my friends read this and want to add me on there, please. message me your username, i wnat to follow back 🥹
ok that might be it for now. im tired, i got attacks i want to do, goodnight gente
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